Note to self: transparency is key. Someone out there is feeling how I'm feeling. This is for us.
I've always had plans. A plan A, B, C, D, and even E in some extreme cases. Lately, I feel like I've exhausted a lot of my plans in different areas of my life. For someone that considers herself a "do-er," it's pretty hard to feel like I don't know what the next step should be.
It is okay to only be concerned about today and to not worry about the other tomorrows. After all, isn't that what Matthew 6:25 tells us to do?
"Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own."
As plans haven't panned out, I'm sure God is just sitting back laughing and shaking His head at me lol. like...forreal. Who am I to dictate to what happens in a life that isn't even my own? He literally holds the entire world in the palm of His hands... I promise my plans and thoughts can't even begin to compare to what He has in mind.
I'd be lying if I said I've read Matthew 6:25 and done exactly what it said. To be honest, there are times when that verse doesn't move me. I still go on worrying (which, of course, never changes the situation). I am challenging myself and you to go beyond doing what feels most natural.
When you feel like worrying is the next step, demand more of yourself. Laugh. Laugh More. Do NOT do the very thing your brain says to do. Why? It's super simple: it makes us out to look like liars lol. That sounds a little harsh but it's the truth. We sing about how Great and Awesome our God is and yet we worry as if He didn't part the Red Sea (Exodus 14), fulfill His promise to Abraham to become the father of many nations (Genesis 21), and promote a woman to be Queen despite the odds (Esther 2).
...focus on WHO holds tomorrow rather than what tomorrow holds.
I will be the first to admit that it's difficult to put my mind at rest when things just don't seem to be working out. The best thing to do is focus on WHO holds tomorrow rather than what tomorrow holds. I'm not sure what I'll be doing next month, next year, and barely even tomorrow lol. But I do know Whom I'll pray to. I know Who holds the strength to fix any challenges that come my way.
So yes, I don't have the answers to my own questions and I've never been better. Rest in knowing that God does so it's all good.